thorn in my flesh…
For some weird reason, in the back of mind, I figured the good Lord would heal me before the summer was over. Don’t ask me why… I just thought that he would heal me before I launched into another season of ministry. In the fall, my life races a hundred miles an hour with breakfast clubs, FCA, speaking engagements, as well as my podcast and blog. I’m B.U.S.Y.
And I mistakenly thought that God wouldn’t expect me to do all of those things while battling lymes disease, fibromyalgia, and pelvic floor issues.
I was wrong.
It’s fall and I’m still feeling unwell. I have been having a pretty good pity party too, until I heard a song on the radio that stopped me in my tracks. Does music ever get to you like that? It was a song by Bethel Music called, “Goodness of God.” and if you haven’t heard it yet, click here.
The lyrics that touched me are:
All my life you have been faithful.
All my life you have been so, so good.
With every breath that I am able, I will sing of the goodness of God.
Boom. My bad attitude got an adjustment in one chorus.
God has been so faithful to me for my entire life, even when I wasn’t faithful to him.
God has been so good to me for my entire life, even when I wasn’t good to him.
And I promised him ten years ago that no matter what, I would share his goodness with the world for as long as he gave me breath because he is worthy.
Friends, I may not have my health, but I have breath.
As the tears ran down my face, and the music filled my van, I resolved to the Lord that I would do ministry in the midst of failing health… until I no longer have breath.
I’m not exactly sure when I bought into the lie that God would make my life easier so that I could do his work, but that lie didn’t do me any favors. I just sat around moping and waiting for my healing instead of working for his kingdom. God revealed long ago in his word that his strength is perfected in our weakness. He doesn’t make our lives perfect so we can do his work, he meets us in our weakness so that his power is more evident.
Paul’s life is a perfect example of this. God gave him a “thorn in the flesh” to keep him humble:
2 Corinthians 12:8-10, “Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. Each time he said, ‘My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.’ So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, persecutions and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
My weakness in this season is an opportunity for God’s strength to shine brightly. And friend, your biggest weakness is an opportunity for you to shine the light of Christ as well. If you have a minute, read 2 Corinthians 4. It’s a beautiful chapter that is all about persevering through hardship. It will inspire you to keep going no matter what you are facing. As always, I love hearing from you. Email me or comment on the blog and I will get on my knees for you. Let’s do this faith journey together.
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